Has things ever happened in your life, and you just want to know what you did wrong? Ive been asking myself that question alot today. Things just dont seem to be the way that they use to be. I miss those old days, and I want them back but I dont think that is ever going to happen, and thats something that Im just going to have to deal with.
Fermin and I have been fighting a lot...it seems like over everything these days. I think that its best that we seperate, even though he doesnt want to leave because of the girls, so we are going to be living together, but not offically together for right now. Mainly for the girls, but also because Im not working right now and I wouldnt be able to find a place on my own if Im not working. Im hoping that we can work things out, but who knows. He even told me today that hes not happy with me anymore, and that hes only still here because of the girls. Wow gee thanks, that just makes me so much better about myself. We still have to figure out sleeping arrangments, since we arent together I just cant sleep in the same bed as him. It wont feel right to me. Ill prolly let him have the bed though because 1. its his bed,2. we have a pull out on the couch and, 3. if he brings another girl home, he can kindly close the door, and I wont know what in Gods name is going on in there, and the girls wont have to watch it all day.
I just dont know what I did wrong. He always calls me lazy and everything, but excuse me I dont think staying home all day taking care of a 16 month old and a newborn is lazy. Yes, I might be online for what seems like all day, but Im not actually sitting infront of the coumpter 24/7. I cant Jasmins too crazy, and Cassandra ug shes just always cranky and drives me nuts. Maybe its because I think that hes cheating on me. Wouldnt you if he tells you that hes going to be home at a certain time, and then he gets home.....2 hours after the time he tells you. Then when I ask he gets all mean about it.
Not to mention hes getting on my butt about losing all this baby weight. Seriously I think that men should get pregnant, so that they can see that its NOT that easy to lose all the baby weight. I tell him Im trying and that its not easy...his response.....yes it is, you just have to watch what your eating. Men, I swear.
Well, thats it, thats all, Im done.
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You didn't do anything wrong. He is just being a poop
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